Total Pageviews

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

dream

Every night I dream of her, of our love
One that's never been
when I wake I shed a tear
missing the twinkle in her eyes
I close my eyes, wishing with all my might
to once more feel her
I shed silent tears
though its been a couple of years
I have been in love with her
the princess who stole my heart but was never mine.

Saturday, October 30, 2010

The rose...

A rose longed for the company of the bees, but none would come to her.
Even so, the flower was still capable of dreaming. When she felt all alone, she would imagi ne a garden filled with bees that came to kiss her. And so she managed to resist until the next day, when she opened her petals again.

“Aren’t you tired?” another rose asked her.
“No. I have to go on fighting.”
“Why?”

“Because if I don’t open up, I wither.”

:)

....................

well Beautiful text but sad to think the only thing a ..rose.. hopes for is to be touched by a bee.

The existence of the rose,with all it’s beauty and simplicity,is more than enough.

The road not taken


Poem by Robert Frost (1874–1963).

TWO roads diverged in a yellow wood,

And sorry I could not travel both

And be one traveler, long I stood

And looked down one as far as I could

To where it bent in the undergrowth; 5

Then took the other, as just as fair,

And having perhaps the better claim,

Because it was grassy and wanted wear;

Though as for that the passing there

Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay

In leaves no step had trodden black.

Oh, I kept the first for another day!

Yet knowing how way leads on to way,

I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh

Somewhere ages and ages hence:

Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—

I took the one less traveled by,

And that has made all the difference.

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

walking a lonely path..

1.)I was walking a lonely path, aloof and alone then came an angel, brighter than thy eyes could see, I asked of myself, could you be ‘THE ONE’ for me?

2.)Those few days of talks with you... you have no clue how much this means to me and how long will I treasure this.

3.)My soul rejoice by seeing your beautiful eyes..


4.)Day you called me at mid night.. my heart told me that I am in love... and i fell asleep that night with smile on my lips..

5.)How can i fall in love with you... only after being in touch for couple of days...?

6.)Answer is because if you are my soul-mate, then:
I loved you even before we met , because you are part of me.. I will not love anyone more than i love you, because you are part of me..

7.)I couldn’t stand living without love any longer, I have reached my limit

8.)If my love for you is true.. its power will bring you back to me..

9.)love does not need to be discussed..it has its own voice.. and it speaks for itself..

10.)part of my heart i gave you..and empty space in my heart is painful.and hence beautiful..thanks you for making my heart more beautiful...


11.)Yesterday after getting your phone call, I felt a stab of jealousy..my inner battle stopped me to concentrate on your phone talks. may be you think someone will give you more happiness than me..


12.)your spirit is good enough and you have courage to tell me the truth.. irrespective of knowing the pain and suffering... what i will get...perhaps you know... hiding truth will be even
more painful..

13.)truth resides where there is a faith..thank you for haiving faith on me..

14.)Ever since the time began, people have recognized their true love by the light in their eyes. and i looked and re-looked into your innocent eyes..I can cleary see that glow in your eyes..how
could I be wrong..

15.)I am writing these words just to extinguish flames of my soul inside.. after getting phone call from you ....and i believe it will help.

16.)if i love you.. in true sense.. from core of my heart then i will never like something to happen which may bring slightest pain to you... its my promise..


17.)The magic moment is the moment when a ‘yes’ or a ‘no’ can change our whole existence...whats so special in you.. words.. or language is not enough to express my feelings....

18.)I am completely blown off... true love does not mean romance of years and months..spending times together... its just a feeling which is not dependent on time scale..

19.)True love is a recognition of a spiritual identity.

20.) no matter what fortune bring for me, you will always keep inspiring me.. to be a better person than i am.. thank you for giving those lovely feelings.


21.)I know that I could forget all stressful day and all fatigue of life in your arms only there in your arms could I close my eyes and sleep like a child.

22.)I believe in:

"Love is an untamed force. When we try to control it, it destroys us. When we try to imprison it, it enslaves us. When we try to understand it, it leaves us feeling lost and confused."


23.)A heartly best wishes for you.. and i mean it..


always yours

Note: above 23 points.. magic number right?? and 2+3 is 5 Hum Panch super family :-)

I would rather have had one breath of her hair, one kiss from her mouth, one touch of her hand, than eternity without it. One. - Seth/City of Angels


Friday, October 15, 2010

lost in fog...





Does this happen to you too? Do you feel lost in the fog of many identities? I do. And sometimes I feel suffocated. Gasping for air, I want to go to wild open spaces with just myself for company. But then who am I? Who is the real me? I'm so many people that I don't know who I really am.


Sometimes I'm a friend, (a keeper of dark secrets, giggling idiot,clown, teacher, storyteller, bully, cook, tyrant), sometimes a son, (rebellious, obedient) , a co-worker (amicable, moody, efficient?, skilled?), a boss (supportive, protective, not a good teacher, not very patient), a brother (organisor of events, bearer of good/bad news, punching bag), a home maker (eternally cleaning up the mess!)...


So what happens to ME when I'm stripped of all these identities? Then I do not know who I am. Do I exist outside of all this? Is there really a ME out there? Shouldn't there really be a ME? Or not? Am I being foolish asking these questions? I don't know.

Like a stage actor, I don a mask and I play my role. I switch roles with ease. Mindlessly I laugh, talk, work... But suddenly I feel choked. By the love of people around me. By their trust in me. By the many roles I'm expected to play. By the implicit belief that I can do what everyone expects of me. But these expectations scare me. I fear I cannot live up to them. Worse, I do not want to live up to them. Why am I being moulded by other people's expectations of ME? What about my own expectations of ME? Jeez do I have any expectations out of myself at all? I do not even know that. How am I supposed to find out? These relationships have fogged my brain. I cannot think beyond them. I want to move out. Yet I'm afraid. What if there really is no ME...

Oh dear,The fog refuses to clear.

When I look in the mirror

Who will I see?

A friend, a son, a co worker

Or ME?

So many masks wait for me

I wear them one by one

If a mask is ripped off

Will the real ME come undone?

I need to look for ME

Things I need to find

But the fog is so heavy

It makes me blind

Oh dear, oh dear

Why does this fog refuse to clear?

Thursday, October 14, 2010

The well of madness.. :-)

(Veronika decides to die)

A powerful wizard, who wanted to destroy an entire kingdom, placed a magic potion in the well from which all the inhabitants drank. Whoever drank that water would go mad.

The following morning, the whole population drank from the well and they all went mad, apart from the king and his family, who had a well set aside for them alone, which the magician had not managed to poison.
The king was worried and tried to control the population by issuing a series of edicts governing security and public health.
The policemen and inspectors, however, had also drunk the poisoned water, and they thought the king’s decisions were absurd and resolved to take no notice of them.

When the inhabitants of the kingdom heard these decrees, they became convinced that the king had gone mad and was now giving nonsensical orders. They marched on the castle and called for his abdication.

In despair the king prepared to step down from the throne, but the queen stopped him, saying:
‘Let us go and drink from the communal well. Then we will be the same as them.’

The king and the queen drank the water of madness and immediately began talking nonsense.
Their subjects repented at once; now that the king was displaying such wisdom, why not allow him to continue ruling the country?

Why men love women and Why women love men

Why men love women (taken from http://paulocoelhoblog.com)

We men love women because they still feel they are adolescents even after they grow old.

Because they smile every time they pass a child.

Because they walk down the street erect, always looking straight ahead, never turning round to say thanks or return the smile or compliment we make when they pass by.

Because they are bold in bed, not because they have a perverse nature but because they want to please us.

Because they don’t complain about the sacrifices they make for the sake of the ideal of beauty, facing up to waxers, Botox injections and menacing machines in gyms.

Because they prefer to eat salads.

Because they draw and paint their faces with the same concentration as Michelangelo working on the Sistine Chapel.

Because if they want to know something about their own appearance, they ask other women and don’t bother us with this type of question.

Because they have their own ways of solving problems, which we never understand, and that makes us mad.

Because they feel compassion, and say “I love you” precisely when they are beginning to love us less, to make up for what we can feel and notice.

Because sometimes they complain about things that we feel too, such as colds and rheumatic pains, and then we understand that they are people just like us.

Because while our armies invade other countries, they remain firm in their private and inexplicable war to put an end to all the cockroaches in the world.

Because they are capable of going to work dressed like men, in their delicate little suits, whereas no man would ever dare go to work wearing a skirt.

Because in the movies – and only in the movies – they never take a shower before making love with their partners.

Because they always manage to find a convincing defect when we say that another woman is pretty, making us feel insecure about our taste. (So true!!!)

Because they manage to fake orgasms with the same artistic quality as the most famous and talented of movie stars.

Because they just love exotic cocktails with different colors and delicate little ornaments, while we always have the same old whiskey.

Because they don’t waste hours thinking about how they are going to approach the pretty young man who has just come on the bus.

Because we came from them, will go back to them, and until that happens, live in orbit around the feminine body and soul.

(And I would add: we men love them for being women. As simple as that).



Why women love men

Because they write poems, songs, and books in our honor.

Because they never understand us, but they never give up.

Because they can see beauty in women when women have long ceased to see any beauty in themselves.

Because they come from little boys.

Because they can churn out long, intricate, Machiavellian, or incredibly complex mathematics and physics equations, but they can be comparably clueless when it comes to women.

Because they are incredible lovers and never rest until we’re happy.

Because they elevate sports to religion.

Because they’re never afraid of the dark.

Because they don’t care how they look or if they age.

Because they persevere in making and repairing things beyond their abilities, with the naïve self-assurance of the teenage boy who knew everything.

Because they never wear or dream of wearing high heels.

Because they’re always ready for sex.

Because they’re like pomegranates: lots of inedible parts, but the juicy seeds are incredibly tasty and succulent and usually exceed your expectations.

Because they’re afraid to go bald.

Because you always know what they think and they always mean what they say.

Because they love machines, tools, and implements with the same ferocity women love jewelry.

Because
they go to great lengths to hide, unsuccessfully, that they are frail and human.

Because they either speak too much or not at all to that end.

Because they always finish the food on their plate.

Because they are brave in front of insects and mice.

Because a well-spoken four-year old girl can reduce them to silence, and a beautiful 25-year old can reduce them to slobbering idiots.

Because they want to be either omnivorous or ascetic, warriors or lovers, artists or generals, but nothing in-between.

Because for them there’s no such thing as too much adrenaline.

Because
when all is said and done, they can’t live without us, no matter how hard they try.

Because they’re truly as simple as they claim to be.

Because they love extremes and when they go to extremes, we’re there to catch them.

Because
they are tender they when they cry, and how seldom they do it.

Because
what they lack in talk, they tend to make up for in action.

Because they make excellent companions when driving through rough neighborhoods or walking past dark alleys.

Because they really love their moms, and they remind us of our dads.

Because they never care what their horoscope, their mother-in-law, nor the neighbors say.

Because they don’t lie about their age, their weight, or their clothing size.

Because they have an uncanny ability to look deeply into our eyes and connect with our heart, even when we don’t want them to.

Because when we say “I love you” they ask for an explanation.

the perfect heart..


A young man was standing in the middle of the town proclaiming that he had the most beautiful heart in the whole valley. A large crowd gathered and they all admired his heart for it was perfect. There was not a mark or a flaw in it.

But an old man appeared at the front of the crowd and said,
“Your heart is not nearly as beautiful as mine.”

The crowd and the young man looked at the old man’s heart. It was beating strongly but full of scars. It had places where pieces had been removed and other pieces put in … but they didn’t fit quite right and there were several jagged edges. The young man looked at the old man’s heart and laughed.
“You must be joking,” he said. “Compare your heart with mine … mine is perfect and yours is a mess of scars and tears.”

” “Yes,” said the old man, “Yours is perfect looking … but I would never trade with you. You see, every scar represents a person to whom I have given my love….. I tear out a piece of my heart and give it to them … and often they give me a piece of their heart which fits into the empty place in my heart but because the pieces aren’t exact, I have some rough edges.
“ Sometimes I have given pieces of my heart away … and the other person hasn’t returned a piece of his heart to me. These are the empty gouges … giving love is taking a chance. Although these gouges are painful, they stay open, reminding me of the love I have for these people too … and I hope someday they may return and fill the space I have waiting. So now do you see what true beauty is?”

The young man stood silently with tears running down his cheeks. He walked up to the old man, reached into his perfect young and beautiful heart, and ripped a piece out. He offered it to the old man.
The old man took his offering, placed it in his heart and then took a piece from his old scarred heart and placed it in the wound in the young man’s heart.
It fit …. but not perfectly, as there were some jagged edges.
The young man looked at his heart, not perfect anymore but more beautiful than ever, since lovefrom the old man’s heart flowed into his.


(taken from http://paulocoelhoblog.com)

Thursday, September 23, 2010

People always see themselves reflected in others..

this beautiful Prologue from Paulo Coelho’s The Alchemist:

The Alchemist picked up a book that someone in
the caravan had brought. Leafing through the pages,
he found a story about Narcissus.

The alchemist knew the legend of Narcissus, a youth
who daily knelt beside a lake to contemplate his own beauty.
He was so fascinated by himself that, one morning, he fell
into the lake and drowned. At the spot where he fell, a flower
was born, which was called the narcissus.

But this was not how the author of the book ended the
story.

He said that when Narcissus died, the Goddesses of the
Forest appeared and found the lake, which had been fresh
water, transformed into a lake of salty tears.
"Why do you weep?" the Goddesses asked.
"I weep for Narcissus," the lake replied.
"Ah, it is no surprise that you weep for Narcissus," they
said, "for though we always pursued him in the forest, you
alone could contemplate his beauty close at hand."
"But..... was Narcissus beautiful?" the lake asked.
"Who better than you to know that?" the Goddesses said
in wonder, "After all, it was by your banks that he knelt each
day to contemplate himself!!"

The lake was silent for some time.

Finally it said:
"I weep for Narcissus, but I never noticed that Narcissus
was beautiful. I weep because, each time he knelt beside my
banks, I could see, in the depths of his eyes, my own beauty
reflected
."

"What a lovely story," the alchemist thought.

So meaningful story.It makes me wonder how do others feel in reflection to my eyes....

People always see themselves reflected in others.
This reminds me of everything. I see her and
I see myself. The more I discover her, she is
like me the more I love her ..


Sunday, September 19, 2010

Finding Peace Amidst Chaos:

why are happiness, peace and contentment are not a part of real
life.. is it possible to be calm, to be at peace even when world around
us is not..

world around us does not have to determine the way we feel about
our lives.others should not change the way i am, our action should
not be decided by whats others think about us..

when there’s a will to find peace, there is a way to attain peace..

no matter how much chaos surrounds us, we can always find things
that make us feel joy and calm.It could be listening kishore kumar's
jolly mood songs or calling my best friend and havin nice gossip ..
and suddenly frustration over a heated argument with annoying
colleague in office...will disappear.. seem absurd..

its important to take few minutes of complete silence.. each day, just
walking outside in evening, watching smiley face of kids playing in
apartment complex, playground, forgetting everything, all issues
of office work, forgetting all chaos around.. and just taking a deep
breathe and diving in swimming pool :-)

some wise man said, there is no education like adversity. the moment
we start seeing positive aspects in our adversities, we feel true
happiness. may be god put us in adverse situation so that we are
prepared and equipped to handle future challenges in life, amicably.
its just kind of training... the confidence of shining through strife.

the world enjoys suffering and pain.. all rosy pictures.. around..
beautiful life for ever, will never bring true happiness.. its roller
coaster of happiness and sorrow which keeps charm of life.

Saturday, September 11, 2010

beautiful life and conflicts

Some things are so beautiful:

A sunrise at nandi hills.
A sweet child's smiling.

A breeze on a rainy afternoon.
Money in your jeans pocket when you have forgotten :-)

My manager announcing that he don't mind me sleeping
in office meeting as long as I don't snore.

Those late night stay at office and boss giving pizza party

A long drive on the highway with friends when I need to unwind.
A surprise that I always wanted.

Food cooked by mom.
A best friend’s hug.

A midnight walk on nariman point sea coast in mumbai.
Midnight walks. Yeah, I love those...
( but i live in bangalore, and night life is not safe,
PS: by night life I dont mean pub/disc, simply walking on beach..
with friends... thanks to French Embassy, who always call me to their
mumbai embassy office, located on Nariman point, for VISA interview)

Life is full of so many precious moments.
Enjoy them all
Kal Ho Na Ho :-)

Today I read your blog again:
"Morning Rose why do u cry ...
Are they tears or dew from sky "

So much emotions in those few lines..

thank you for coming across my life and sharing beautiful
words.this means a lot to me.we forget those good times
and nice words. when we are angry, and share harsh words,
but this does not mean we have less respect for that person.

those conflicts are momentarily, and your values, your
words, your intelligence your worthiness, I will treasure always.

Conflicts:
is conflict good or bad.. ?
conflict is good when the outcome is a win-win resolution.
conflict is good when the relationship between the people
in conflict is strengthened as a result of the conflict...

conflict gives us a chance to know both side of a person..
..conflict can help build a relationship with understanding
and respecct....conflict opens minds to new previously

unexplored possibilities... possibility of new way of approaching
chanllenges.. healthy conflicts in thoughts are good as long as we
are true from heart.

So conflicts and fights with her will bring new possibility
of understanding our relationship.. thanks for those fights
and conflicts :-)

few lines i am re-posting..

I cannot exist without you. I am forgetful of everything but seeing you.
My life seems to stop there, I see no further. you have absorb'd me.
I have a sensation at the present moment as though I were dissolving...

I decided to watch Peaceful Warrior movie today:
here is some nice conversation between MillMan and Socrates:

Millman: Life has just three rules?
Millman: Paradox, humour, and change.
Socrates: Paradox...
Millman: Life is a mystery. Don't waste time trying to figure it out.
Socrates: Humour...
Millman: Keep a sense of humour, especially about yourself. It is a strength beyond all measure.
Socrates: Change...
Millman: Know that nothing stays the same.



-bye prendre soin bonne nuit

Sunday, August 22, 2010

Soul mate...



I came across an Interesting theory about Soul mates( from book, brida ) :

“In certain reincarnations, we divide into two. Our souls divide as do crystals and stars, cells and plants.

Our souls divides in two, and those new souls are in turn transformed into two and so, within a few generations, we are scattered over a large part of Earth.

The truth is that if the Anima Mundi were merly to keep dividing, it would keep growing, but it would also become gradually weaker.

As well as dividing into two, we also find ourselves. And that process of finding ourselves is called Love. Because when a soul divides, it always divides into a male part and a female part.”

That's how the Book of Genesis explains it: the soul of Adam was split in two, and Eve was born out of him.

“In each life, we feel a mysterious obligation to find those Soulmate. The Greater Love that separated them feels pleased with the Love that brings them together again.”

“We can also allow our Soulmate to pass us by, without accepting him or her, or even noticing. Then we will need another incarnation in order to find that Soulmate. And because of our selfishness, we will be condemned to the worst torture humankind ever invented for itself: loneliness.”

The other day, I spoke to you about one of the great secrets of magic: the Soulmate. The whole of man’s life on the face of Earth can be summed up by that search for his Soulmate. He may pretend to be running after wisdom, money or power, but none of that matters. Whatever he achieves will be incomplete if he fails to find his Soulmate.

The more I understand myself, the more I will understand the world. And the closer I will be to my Soulmate

If you are my Soulmate, then:

I loved you even before we met , because you are part of me..

I will not love anyone more than i love you, because you are part of me..

and a small story:

A five years old girl was on the beach with her father, and he asked her to go and see what the temperature of the water was like. She was five years old and glad to be able to help. She went to the edge and dipped in a toe.

'I put my feet in and it's cold,' she told him.

Her father picked her up and carried her down to the water again and, without any warning, threw her in. She was shocked at first, but then laughed out loud at the trick he'd played.

'How's the water?' asked her father.

'It's lovely,' she replied.

'Right, from now on, whenever you want to find out about something, plunge straight in.'

And I am plunging myself straight into sea of water for finding out my Soulmate.

after talking with you.. i feel my soul rejoice..with faith in someone .. I feel a protective presence. i need to believe in this presence. i dont know how to explain but it exists.

I know that I could forget all stressful day and all fatigue of life in her arms only there in her arms could I close my eyes and sleep like a child.

ont un beau jour..

-avinash

Sunday, June 6, 2010

..

..